ll.3.25

hello world! i deleted all my old rambles because i really didnt feel like keeping up with it. i also worked on this page a little bit..... i dont know what to say, i just want to say something!! i checked out solanin from my school library with the intent of reading it on my day off tomorrow but read it all today, so i dont have much to do tomorrow other than school work (yuck). other than that, i think my day was okay!! i was a little tired but nothing negative happened. i ate a big bowl of oatmeal, that was lovely...

11.5.25

today i did nothing, as i usually do! i made up a test in math, but i didnt finish it. ill have to do it tomorrow. i did notice my knees are getting worse. im walking with a little bit of a limp now, only when its bad though. and my stomach hurt all day! not nice! i spoke a little bit to my table in math, and to my friends at lunch : ). other than all the pain, i think school was fine. i was grumpy when i got home though. i watched lots of pathology videos and ate spaghetti. more pain, more videos, blah blah. nothing interesting. i wanted to get stuff done today, maybe make a gift for bf or work on code, but im just unmotivated. i know i HAVE to learn css grid, but i just realllly dont wanna... nothing online makes sense and i hate nagging my friends. maybe ill do more tomorrow.

11.10.25

was at bfs house for their birthday! it was very fun and i enjoyed being with him. he enjoyed his gifts and i think the gift i gave looks rather lovely on him. we did cards against humanity and watched videos mainly... although bf did chase me under the bed. there's a video of it and its actually pretty funny. i did get very anxious for a while though because two other people were over and i dont talk to them much. bf accidentally gave himself nicotine poisoning and was tweaking (im not exhaggerating) most of the night, so that was great... i was also a little geeked so i was out of it for a few hours... then other friend woke up and she showed me kpop videos. i learned so much about little korean boys! now im back in school and impatient for the weekend because i miss bf. ahhhhh someone put me down... i just thougt about it but i am so anxious all the time, i feel like those bald tiny dogs. mini american greyhound. they are so awkward and shy looking, i think they are my spirit animal. i thought of that because i was thinking of my friend. they are so freeking cool that i get so nervous talking to them, HAHA. i feel like a fanboy talking to a celebrity when im with them. ok i need to stop this one, because its getting long and i could ramble forever and ever and it would get nonsensical.